Fiction Story 1 (him)

watching him from the distance is all i can do in these past 2 years. he has the most beautiful blue eyes. and his blonde hair is as soft as a cotton. i don't know much about him. but i can see deep pain from the look from his eyes.he rarely smile, he often cries.

getting near him is the thing that i can never do. even in my wildest imagination, i can't do that. and all i do is watching him from a distance. my curiosity is getting larger. he is the only guy that attracts me the most. one at a time, i follow him secretly to his home after the school bell rang.

i step slowly so he wouldn't notice if there was someone stalking at him. i took a deep breath. i heard a sound. what do you want? you don't have to hide, i won;t harm you. i was really shock. we walked and talked. i understand now, he feels too much pain in his age. he's depressed. and i'm, going to wipe those pain for him.and i'm going to stay beside him on guard forever. and now, we started dating.

Start A New Page

in my new school, i'm trying to start a new whole blank page to fill. and the word 'him' shouldn't exist in my page. my memories with him, my pain, the smile that we share together, the dictionary that we share during English class everything that might cause me pain in the future shall be gone. but that's a task with an extreme difficulty level. forgetting him is just too hard. and i'm thinking just how to bare the pain of not seeing 'him' that i dear the most.

now, every morning i went to school, he will not be there. and i just wanted to put this in mind every time that he is not there. so, we can't share dictionary during english class, we can't play around like idiots, we can't do things together now like we did before. i shall forget about him, even if it costs pain. and i'm thinking, to find a new love.

i saw a guy and i like him, but it doesn't last long, he's not like 'him' that i dear the most. Japanese guy, don't like him anymore. and then i saw this guy not really good-looking in fact he's a bad-looking guy. and i fall for him for quite a long time. and i just have to face the fact that he's a jerk. well, he's not special anyway .

there are lot of things that i dislike in my new school. teachers come first. and second the people. and i just don't like the school and it rules. but the friends are friendly . there are no bullying. but still, in the morning i have to drag myself going to school. and in my mind is shit shit shit shit. that's it no matter where i go, complains always come out from my mouth. and now i'm grade 8, i don't expect anything great.

Me & Him

i have always know that regrets come last. and sometimes you're stupid that you make the wrong decision.

it was a great day. i rushed to the swing with a laugher and with the guy that i dear the most accompany me playing.i swing the swing as high as possible. i feel like i wanna touch the blue sky. he was there, beside me. and then he suddenly said do you like me? he asked. i was stupid and i answer no that was my biggest regret. and now i'm dying for him,and next time, i swear and have to do better for my sake.

were kinda close, you know he used to touch me with his soft hand, and i just miss his warmth. and i don't think that anyone could do that.i think he can never be replaced.

time flies fast, after we past the school and national examinations i gotta go move on to middle school, for 7th grade. that was the time where i feel pain the most, i cried at night. it really hurts somehow. and i think i have to forget him. 'him' that i dear the most.